Gypsy-Rose Blanchard knows her past will always be a part of her.
But that also means that one day, the reality star will have to talk to her and fiancé Ken Urker’s 4-month-old daughter Aurora Raina Urker about her role in the 2015 murder of her mom Claudine “Dee Dee” Blanchard.
“I’m putting all of this effort in,” Gypsy—who has spoken about the allegedMunchausen by proxy she experienced at the hands of her mom—said in the May 12 episode of Gypsy Rose: Life After Lockup. “I have been hit with the question, ‘How are you going to tell your daughter about what you did?’ I just want to know that she’s going to love me and forgive me for what I did in my past.”
“I just don’t want that to cloud her mind and her end up hating me,” she continued. “I’m not a monster. I don’t want her to grow up thinking that I’m one. You hear about families that have deep, dark secrets, and they have skeletons in their closet, and their kids disown them and hate them growing up and resent them. I just don’t want that to be the case for us.”
As a new parent,the 33-year-old—who served seven years of a 10-year prison sentence for her role in the crime—also reflected on her complicated relationship with motherhood. (Her ex-boyfriend Nicholas Godejohn is serving a life sentence for first-degree murder in connection with Dee Dee’s death.)
“I feel like I’m getting my own ideas about what a mother is by the emotions that I feel for my daughter,” Gypsy reflected. “I didn’t realize how much it was going to affect me until I had her and I was holding her. Then I started to realize, wow, I really truly understand now how wrong it is, how wronged I was for my mom to do this.”
Throughout Gypsy’s childhood—in which she says she was forced to use a wheelchair and an oxygen tank, among other medical devices—she was treated for conditions she never had like leukemia, muscular dystrophy, asthma, vision and hearing impairment.
“I can’t stand it whenever I’m making Aurora a bottle and she’s crying for like a minute and a half,” she said. “I want to comfort her, I want to make it all better. Knowing that my mom was in the room with me when I was screaming in pain after a surgery or a procedure or a test. And I’m like, ‘How? How?'”
Gypsy emphasized that a mother is meant to be “protector.”
“It’s being the person that you need to be in order for you to raise what is essentially a fresh start,” she explained. “This little tiny person is a fresh start for you to instill morals, values, beliefs, hopes, dreams.”
“You have to make sure that you are right in your own mind in order to be that person that your child is going to look up to and be like, ‘Oh, mommy did this right. Mommy did that,'” she continued. “But then, I think when the world gets so loud and overwhelming, that the only voice that I hear is my own saying that I can’t do it. That’s when I’m the loneliest.”
For more about Gypsy’s life after prison, keep reading.
“First Selfie of Freedom!”
After being released from prison on Dec. 28, 2023, Gypsy Rose Blanchard snapped her first Instagram selfie.
“Married Life”
Gypsy and then-husband Ryan Anderson shared a glimpse into their new era together.
“Sister Love”
Gypsy reunited with her sister Mia Blanchard amid her new chapter.
Goodbye 2023
“A New Years Eve Eve kiss with my hubby.”
Turning the Page
Gypsy also ended 2023 with an Instagram selfie.
Red Carpet Debut
Gypsy and Ryan walked their first red carpet in January 2024 at the premiere of her Lifetime docuseries The Prison Confessions of Gypsy Rose Blanchard.
PDA Alert
Gypsy and Ryan kissed on the red carpet at the premiere.
Breakup
In late March 2024, three months after her prison release, Gypsy shared that she and Ryan broke up.
“People have been asking what is going on in my life,” she wrote in a statement on her private Facebook page, according to People. “Unfortunately my husband and I are going through a separation and I moved in with my parents home down the bayou.”
Physical Transformation
Gypsy underwent a rhinopasty and septoplasty (nose job) April 5, 2024. Her physical transformation will be documented on Lifetime’s Gypsy Rose: Life After Lock Up.
Divorce
Gypsy filed for divorce from Ryan on April 8, 2024, according to court documents obtained by TMZ. The filing came nearly two years after their July 2022 prison wedding.
Gypsy’s Tribute to Her “Soulmate”
In late April 2024, weeks after filing for divorce, Gypsy announced she got back together with ex-fiancé Ken Urker. The following month, she made their rekindled romance social media official by sharing a video montage of their romantic moments on TikTok.
Love Story
In her video, Gypsy described her love story with Ken as “legendary.”
The Burning Question
And when a fan, using her own past comments about ex Ryan, took the oppotunity to ask her in the comments a NSFW question about Ken, Gypsy responded quickly and candidly.
Animal Style
Gypsy tried her first In-N-Out Burger, a Double-Double burger served animal-style. She rated it a 7.
Catching Up With a Kardashian
Gypsy called getting to meet Kim Kardashian, who has become a criminal justice advocate in recent years, a “huge honor.”
“She’s a really sweet woman and I really appreciate her taking the time to talk with me,” Gypsy told E! News host Keltie Knight. “We had a lot to talk about as far as prison reform goes. I know that she’s done some really amazing things with prison reform. And that’s really close to my heart because I’ve been on that side of the fence.”
Oh Baby
Less than three months after filing for divorce, Gypsy announced that she and her new boyfriend Ken were expecting their first baby together.
“I’m happy to announce that I am 11 weeks pregnant,” she shared in a July 2024 YouTube video. “This was not planned at all, it was completely unexpected.”
Body Art
Gypsy showed off her meaningful new tattoos in July.
It’s a Girl
Gypsy and Ken celebrated at a sex reveal party for their first baby in August 2024 and, at a baby shower in November, shared that they’ll be naming her Aurora Raina Urker.
Harrowing Memoir Details
With co-authors Melissa Moore and Michele Matrisciani, Gypsy told her dramatic life story to date in her book My Time to Stand, which came out in December.
She’s a Mom
Gypsy gave birth to her first baby on Dec. 28, 2024, exactly one year after her prison release.
